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It’s been a year since I yielded to God’s instruction of leaving it all behind to walk with him. Everything had to be left behind, my old way of life, friends, structures, income stream, I had to leave it all. I first heard the instruction about 3 months prior,I struggled, wrestled with the idea of stepping into the unknown. I mean, all my adult life I had run by intellect and some sort of control on the outcome of my life, honoring principles and patterns that yielded results that were sort of predictable, I was used to taking full responsibility, you know, all the self based stuff. 

I believed him, left it all, bit by bit, I stepped aside, held on to his hand, trusted him, the destination wasn’t defined but he gave me pictures, images, promises that for lack of a better word were far fetched at the time. But I believed, I really did.  Every word, every impression, every sign, every handwriting on the wall. Daily, he spoke, he showed up always, he pulled me closer to himself, called out indeed.

On this journey, I’ve discovered who I really am and who he made me to be, he showed me what was written in the scrolls, the volume of the books, he showed me his plans and thoughts, line upon line and I realized that I’ve been way off, I was in delusion. Only when you truly walk with him will you understand his plans, expectations and desires. Desires to have you know his heart, he shares secrets if you’re willing to listen. I know now that there’s a big difference between knowing Him and knowing about Him. Oh there’s a huge difference. 

I’ve also realized that I don’t know the way by myself, since I began to walk with the Holy Spirit, I’ve seen how frail I am without him, how clueless I’ll be without his help, oh how many costly mistakes would I have made?

I know by experience how true this scripture is “O LORD, I know that the way of man is not in himself: it is not in man that walketh to direct his steps.”- Jer 10:23.   I’ve walked in the blessedness of divine direction. I’ve also seen the fruits of practical obedience to instructions. He instructs, we obey. A lot of times he doesn’t explain, but you see the wisdom behind the instruction when you obey.   

I see how he works in me both to will and to do, he wants better for me than I do myself. Died many deaths but life bursted forth each time, it’s been from one level of glory to another. Birthed visions, I’ve discovered gifts I didn’t know were in me, walked on paths I didn’t know even existed. I’ve seen his grace and mercy in no small measure. He’s revealed himself as Jireh, Nissi, Rapha, Shammah, Adonai to me personally, I’ve seen wisdom and he’s given me understanding, he gave me speed, shaped my perspective, gave me new lenses. I think his thoughts and discern his ways, it’s beautiful. 

Taking root, to the end that I might blossom, bud and fill the face of the world with fruit, I’ve given my life to him, sown it as a seed, and I’ve got pictures of the harvest and they’re real to me. It’s not been a casual coast though, there’s been bumps and as you’d expect with a road not taken by most, no self navigation because I don’t know the way but there’s peace in knowing that he’s gone ahead of me, breaking gates and cutting asunder iron, opening doors none can shut. 

Walking on water is living by faith, moving and staying by every proceeding word, finding yourself in his written word, dwelling in the secret place, knowing him that I may find me. I’m never alone, I just have to look around and he’s there, closer than close, closer than most. I’ve seen his hand move, making the impossible common place, he’s blown my mind in no small measure and I’m excited for what’s to come. He teaches in amazing ways and the more I know the more I hunger and thirst for more.

I’ve also come to respect by revelation those who have gone ahead, those that have obtained promises, subdued kingdoms and have become shining lights in their respective generations. I know I’ll obtain mine. Looking back, I won’t change a thing, I’m glad I took the first two steps and climbed out of the boat, I’ve lived by faith and I’ve seen measures of its practicality, there’s more and I’m willing to explore, knowing he’d walk with me as far as I’m willing to go. one year of walking on water, a hundred and twenty to go. 

In closing, It’s expedient that I leave you with this, the Lord is not a respecter of persons, he wants it for you too, he desires the intimacy with you, he’s closer than you think, wanting you to feel after Him, to trust him and to make a conscious effort to walk with him, to the end that you may know him, because I promise, that’s when you really start living. 

But as it is written, eye hath not seen, nor ear heard, neither have entered into the heart of man, the things which God hath prepared for them that love him.

— 1 Corinthians 2:9.